Dad, 5/18/2012 I put the date of 5/18 down, but I honestly am not sure what the date is. I still miss you so much. I have a hard time trying not to cry, but I often fail. I guess I became far too dependent on you, more than I had a right to. So now I feel loss, just about every minute of every day. I was going to move into your house in Niantic, but I think you helped me change my mind. It’s probably best that I just go home and try to move on with my life. I am glad that Soapie and Gloria are with you now. It must be so wonderful. Sucks for me though. The last year was all about us, now it feels like it’s only me. Zack is pretty busy with his work and on his free time, he is working with Charlie, who by the way is doing wonderfully. He has already won 2 ribbons. Everyone else has gone there own way, busy with different things. To be totally honest with you, there is not too much I want to do. I have spent my days on the computer looking for jobs. I am feeling a little overwhelmed. I know you are all watching over me and will guide me along. It is just so hard to shake this sadness, I am really trying, but the tears are as common place as breathing. I pray that you are beyond happy in heaven. I hope you have seen everyone and that you are all catching up with each other. Tell everyone I say hello, I love and miss them all. Please pray for me Dad. I miss you so much. Until we meet again, I love you forever. Geri